My intentions were to nurse for three months. Then I said, okay, I survived that, so let's go to six months. The six became nine, the nine twelve and here I sit looking at fifteen.
I still had no real plan at weaning. Even though I said that I would stop *no later* than 15 months (knowing that if she wanted to nurse till 24 months, I would do it). That being said, I don't want you to think that our breastfeeding days are of her on the boob all day long. From about twelve months on, it's been 2-3 times a day. Occasionally a day would come that she'd nurse 4-5 but I've been an on demand nurser. She gets it when she wants it. Let's be honest. She gets anything she wants, when she wants it. She's my boss.
That being said, she's not asked to nurse since 6:00 last night. I'm going on 24 hours of no nursing. Today, my boobs have been about to burst. I didn't put in nursing pads because, well, I haven't used them since she was a few months old. I just didn't think about it. (I don't even know where they are, to be honest.) I had to leave class a little early today to pick her up from day care (since daddy couldn't and it's his normal day to do so) and on my way to get her my boobs hurt more and more and more. Ugh. I finally get to her and the minute I see her, my bra gets warm and wet and sooo gross. Ugh. I'm leaking. So I sit and converse with the daycare lady for 15 minutes or so about Kinley's day and weaning and engorgement, etc and my bra just gets wetter and wetter. So gross.
So now I'm home and Kinley still hasn't asked to nurse. I know that if I offer it to her, she'll nurse. But I'm kind of thinking that she's self-weaning. And if I ask her to nurse, or remind her, that it'll be a step backwards in the direction we should be going. Does that make sense? I don't know what to do.
Part of me says to stick in a bra pad and just go with it. But what if tomorrow she decides she wants to nurse and I've already started to dry up!? Oh the stress.